I'am an online gamer, no more.

[Briffa]

I have decided to quit playing game online for good for a long time anyway. This dicision has come up mainly because my mum put restrictions on my computer to prevent me from using certain programs that allowed me to interact with other players and to play online (COGS, TS, MIRC, etc). Everything has been taken out and wiped clean.

She did this to protect me after I had one of my episodes. I also think it was because since the BFV division disbanded that I wasn't able to fit in anywhere else. WTF was my first and only home and no other clan would ever replace the fun experience I had here. I choose not to look for someone to blame for what happened a week ago but I can tell you now it really broke my heart. :cry:

This had to happen straight after my dad took off and left me, and it only made my depression worst. I didn't want to join LAB cause I didn't enjoy being hated or being treated differently cause of the tag I wore. I didn't want to join ASS (former WTF members) because there still was this uneasy atmosphere where everyone had this hostlity towards the leaders of WTF. Another thing that bothered me was how low the BFV community had sunk.

I only had one home and that was WTF, no where else. I was given offers from other clans to dump WTF and join them but I never did that cause I was so attached to the place and the people in it. Nothing has been the same, I'm bored everyday cause there isn't much I can do with my machine. :(

I'm sorry if I'm sounding like a total weakling. It's not my fault, I really try to be strong but it's so hard to stay on my own two feet and face the world everyday. I really really don't want want to be alive anymore, I'm feeling heaps worst then I've ever been and the anti-depressent medication isn't doing jack squat for me. :cry:

I don't know why I'm typing this, I guess it's because I know you guys have always listened to what I've had to say and have always supported me. I better head to bed, though I don't know whats the whole point in going to bed since I can't sleep anyway.

[Deadly Ernest]

Hey Briffa. We don't know each other ... hope you don't mind me replying. Just wanted to say keep your chin up. I imagine your Mum's probably just as confused and upset as you are at the moment. Give her all the love you can and you'll get through it together. Everything will seem clearer in a few days :D

[chukka]

Hey Briffa, keep ya chin up like Ernest said mate things will get a whole lot better if you give `em a chance, but you gotta help things along as well mate so good luck with everything............regards chukka...........

[RustyBlade]

Well said Ern.

You don't know me either Briffa but I'd like to add something to that as well.

I know it may not seem like it but things will get better, I'm sure of it.
Bad things happen to good people so you be strong and things will change for the better.
As Ern said ,you support your Mum and hopefully your Mum will support you as well.

People care, I promise :D

Oh and 1 more thing..
I'm sorry if I'm sounding like a total weakling It's exactly the opposite, only the strong are able to admit to not being able to cope sometimes.

[Diggler]

Hold your head up mate! I know how you're feeling, I have also suffered depression due to problems in my life. I rode it out for about 15 years before coming to peace.

Trust me mate, just hang in there, keep that chin high and dont let the crap stack too high.

Plus dont forget that you always have friends to talk too, and just have a yarn with in these forums! :)

[[wtf]trauma]

You can always talk to us if you feel the need mate, we'll be idling on clan-wtf and wtf_dod irc channels and on teamspeak. I dont have much experience in what you are going through like some people in the clan but i'll be around if you want to talk.

[onslaught]

It doesn't need to be said again.. but there is no quick or easy fix mate.. so as the others have said here, just keep plugging away.. Keep busy with something you enjoy.

If you get the chance, try doing something different, or going away someplace just to be in a different environment maybe... who knows.

In the mean-time, we will miss not having you around on TS or IRC, so make sure you post a message every now and then so we can keep in touch..

cheers,
David

[[WTF]hakenspit]

Hey briff, sorry to hear mate but having been speaking to you over the last few daysI can understand why. Keep in touch mate and I will try to organise another trip to MSAC.

Keep plugging away at whas important to you mate and you will get there.

[Carcrash]

hey lil bro..... i spent quite a bit of time talking to your mum just before she decided to do this 2 u. Something u mite b interested in that convo was she asked me if myself and the others would forgive her for doing this, in which i replied "no, but i will understand y".

tis a sad loss for the gaming world to lose such an excellent player. One of the very few ive had the pleasure to play allongside in both clan games and pubs who shows respect for everyone on the battlefield, even if others r being tards.....

if u get a chance @ all to play a game here and there make sure u get in contact so we can just in pubs together and lay the smack down like usual.....

take care bro, dont b shy, reply :p

PS - i still spell better than commy... oh and hak= skeletor, muahhahahahaha....
hehe had to say it :p

[[WTF]hakenspit]

oh and Stay in touch and remembe we have an inbuilt IRC java applet on the oznet forums....so drop in and say hi every so often....

oh and piss of crashy I psekked hoof

[LAW_MAN]

yer sorry briffa
I tryed to help

but like i said a week of pc might help you out mate

pfft fuck spelling crashy:)

[Krum]

Hey there,

I dont know you or anything, but it sounds like your having a tough time of it, just keep your chin up and soldier on, things will start to get better for you, believe me :)

[Crakawoody]

Briffa...Dont do anything stupid
when [WTF] disbanded i was like HOLY FUCK and was lost and didnt know what to do.
i know nothing can replace [WTF] cause it was my first clan aswell and it was just plain bad luck that it was disbanded and to this day im still sad that it happened
i know im a bit late to post this but i dont really care even if no one reads it
i was a member of wtf for about 2-3 weeks b4 you were and i brought you in here so its my fault that your getting a bit upset about it but on the other hand i dont care, it was not my fault that it was disbanded and im still trying to find out which people are the ones that were good or were bad and i have ended up joining ass| because ive found its the closest place to wtf i could find.

i hope you make the right decsisions in life briff and i hope to see you still in the gaming community and i actually hope you come back and read this thread.

if hak sees this post will you give me briffas mobile num or home num

p.s. there was a certain satisfaction wereing the [WTF] into battle and not actually getting called a hax or anything like that

regards ex [WTF] CrAkAwOoDy now ASS|CrAkAwOoDy

[[wtf]trauma]

Come back for DoD source, c'mon Crakawoody :)

[Crakawoody]

i might depending if i get dod